a selfless sissy

As a submissive sissy, i know my needs and pleasure are second to my Mistress. my pleasure is inconsequential to Hers. my goal in our relationship is to ensure She is pleased. It's been an ever evolution to which i am grateful to have experienced it with Her. As i look back through this years spreadsheet (i keep track of my time in chastity and both of our orgasm count), i am astonished how lopsided the scale is. As a submissive sissy, that is what brings me joy. That is what brings me pleasure. Knowing that Her needs are met. Being able to give Her pleasure, and to orgasm, time and time again, brings me more pleasure than any physical stimulation i've ever had.

We had some time together last night. We both wore some really sexy lingerie and nylons. She made it clear before anything happened that i was under no circumstances allowed an orgasm. i was happy to have shared two of Her own orgasms and after She was well satisfied, i was allowed (as a reward) out of the cage, and to slide my sissy clit between Her nylon covered feet. 

She knows this is my number one fetish. Nylon covered feet are my weakness. And to be able to feel them so intimately on me.... it's a delightful torture knowing i'm not allowed to cream myself. i was begging, and She smiled every time She said no. Once She told me i have had enough, we spent a couple minutes snuggling, and She asked an interesting question.

"Do you miss being free?"

i asked what she meant. She explained, do you prefer being my submissive little sissy in chastity, or do you miss being free. A normal male, able to stroke your cock, and cum when you like.

i'm sure, to anyone reading this blog, you wouldn't be surprised with my answer. i told Her no, not at all. i love being Her submissive sissy in chastity. i said that i actually don't like stroking my penis. It doesn't feel good to me. i said i prefer to masturbate and cum like a girl, with a vibrator. It feels so much better. i mean i LOVE to have sex with Her. But it happens so very rarely and i'm very happy about that. She has never been able to "get off" on penetration alone. So if it's not bringing Her pleasure to get off, i almost feel selfish for it. 

~sierra