Control

Mistress and i had a conversation over dinner last night about control.  She has been working on securing a new position where She works, but is worried about giving up control of what She does on a daily basis.  And that got me thinking about how similar we are and at the same time how different.

She is very much in control of our personal life.  She has grown into that personality, but it fits Her well.  She enjoys being in control all the time... at work and at home.  She wants things done Her way.

When She was telling me about Her work.  It got me thinking.  i too am very much in control at work too.  i don't like giving up responsibilities to others.  There are quite a few things that i do at my job that quite frankly someone else who got paid a lot less than me could do, but then they wouldn't be done my way!  i like things done a particular way... my way.  And i don't very willingly give that up... control.

Where we differ is, that's where my control ends.  When i leave work, i too leave my control at work.  When i get home, i'm the submissive.  Submitting to my Wife's control.  Where She enjoys control in all aspects of life, i like to leave that at work.  Perhaps that's why i feel submissive at home, because shall i say it... i'm Dominant at work!

Back to the blog (An Update)

Hello again all!  As i'm sure you're all aware, i kinda took a break from the blog.  Not so much as given up, but more like i felt it wasn't really worth it?  Maybe that's not the best way to describe it.  Guess i thought no one was really paying attention and it wasn't worth spending time on.  That is until i got a message from a follower on FetLife asking about my blog and why i haven't posted in forever.  Turns out he is an avid reader and shares a lot of the same interests, and missed hearing about my life.  So, guess i'll get back into this!

SOOOO much has happened since last i wrote.  More than i can/want to put into one post.  i promise i'll find time to start posting more frequently.  So, where do i begin.  Last i posted, Miss and i went on a date and we both wore our anklets.  i still wear lingerie (bra, panties, stockings) every day in addition to my cage.  The key?  Yep, that's still secured away.  The last of my "backup" boy undies, or as my friend Sydney calls them, "uglies"... have been discarded.  That's a pretty big deal!  It's like a turning point.  No going back now!  i have no choice, no matter what, i wear panties every day.  It's not a big deal, i've done it so long now that i don't consider it any different... they're just MY underwear.

But, what happens when i have a physical?  Or, for instance, Miss has a massage scheduled for the two of us in two weeks!  Now, i've gotten massages several times before with her... it's no big deal.  The last few times we've gone, i've even been shaved.  i've stopped worrying about my smooth legs.  This time is different though!  Every time we've gone before, i was able to wear boy boxers or briefs.  This time, i'll be laying on the table, wearing only a pair of panties, covered in just a sheet!

Now, i do have a few pair of rather "plain" looking panties.  Ones that if you just take a quick glance at, maybe you could mistake them for boy briefs.  But, i keep thinking, any woman is going to be able to tell.  i can't imagine they'll say anything, i mean it's a business and they're professionals.  i'm sure they've even seen it before.  Plus, its not like i'm laying there completely exposed, i'll be covered by a sheet.  But it's that "outside my comfort zone" feeling that get's me excited/nervous!  i just hope Miss allows me to remove my cage before we go.  Now THAT would certainly be noticeable!

Oh one more thing.  After the massage, we're getting pedicures!  We've done this once before, but they didn't polish my toes.  i don't know if She's serious or not, but this time Miss told me She was going to ask them to paint my nails.  OMG!  There's that excited/nervous "outside my comfort zone" feeling again!