Monday, January 20, 2020

We went to a party!

Yes, that kind of party!  Saw it on FetLife.  It was a local, post holiday, holiday play party.  We were encouraged to go by a few people we've come to know in the community so we decided to make it happen.  There was to be all sorts of BDSM furniture there.  Come, play, have fun, eat, mingle, repeat. 

We've never done anything like this before.  Yeah, we've gone to a few munches, and have gotten to know a couple people quite well.  We know OF their kinks, but have never SEEN their kinks.  It was hard enough for me to show myself off to the one other couple we're friends with (who also crossdresses).  Besides my wife, they are the only people that have ever seen me dressed.

To say i was nervous was the understatement of the year.  All day, the day of, i was literally shaking!  Deep down i knew it wouldn't be a big deal.  This was a group of like minded, kinky people, belonging to a very cool community.  i "knew" everything would be fine.  Or would it...

We were to leave at 6PM.  i got dressed, and did my makeup early to make sure i had enough time.  i was done and we were ready by 5:30.  i now had a half hour to drive myself crazy... why am i doing this... what's wrong with me... people can't see me like this!!! 

i was wearing a green dress that ended just above the knee, my wig and full makeup, clip on ear rings to match my dress, sheer black nylons with a criss-cross pattern on them, and 4" purple leopard print pumps.  6 O'clock rolled around, and yep, i left the house like that!  No turning back now.  i did not bring any other clothes with me... it was now or never. 

When we walked in, i was terrified!  In my mind i pictured everyone laughing.  i was dead wrong!  We had a blast!  Everyone was so cool!  i got about a dozen compliments on my heels, everyone i talked to loved my outfit.

Now, since this was our first experience with anything like this, we didn't really intend to participate in the whole "playing" part of the party.  We just wanted to check it out, and see what was going on.  We cleared that with the party organizer and it was cool.  "Voyeurism is participating", she said.  They had pretty much everything you can think of.  Suspension frame, CBT chair, spanking bench, St. Andrews cross, and a stock. 

At one point we were upstairs (where all the equipment was) chatting and having a look around.  i heard a snapping noise and asked what it was.  One of our friends said it was a "violet wand".  i knew what that was, but have never seen one.  She said "come here, check it out".  We went over, and the couple had just started playing with it.  We started talking and i asked to feel it.  The guy started running it up and down my arm, and before i knew it, once again our friend said "Sierra, try out the stock.  Come here, put your head and arms in here".  Before i knew what was happening, i was locked in the stock and getting zapped!  It didn't hurt at all, felt more like a cross between a scratch and a tickle.  This went on for a good 5 minutes.  i though, wow my Wife is having a great time.  That's when i realized She was standing in FRONT of me!  i came to find out it was the guy we first saw using it was the one behind me, having a good ol' time making me squirm! 

What. A. Night.  We'll DEFINITELY be back for the next one. 

~Sierra

Friday, January 3, 2020

Permanent

Had a discussion with someone on ChastityMansion.com this morning, about permanent chastity.  So, what is "permanent"?  That's kind of a relative term, and can mean different things to different people.  We've been "playing" with chastity for several years now.  We have a peeks and valleys.... our highs and lows.  We get really into it, then life happens and we'll go months with nothing.

Its those months of "lows" that we realize how much better life, and our relationship is with chastity.  We talked about it back in Sept. and we're really trying for a more "permanent" lockup now.  We don't want to hit those lows ever again.  So as of Sept, i have been locked 100% of the time.

Now what does permanent mean to us?  Well, i'm not locked 24/7, 100%, throw away the key because i'll never be out again, permanent.  Yes, i am still let "out".  But it's now never up to me.  i'm only out when SHE wants me to be.  i only have an erection when SHE wants it, and certainly never have an orgasm unless SHE allows it.  i have no access to the key that unlocks Her cage.  So, yeah, i think that probably means i'm now "permanent".

An up(down?)grade

For the past year and a half, with the exception for a couple months i was in a pink Cherry Keeper, i have been wearing a shortened version ...