Feelings

There have been a lot of emotions and stress in our household this November. My Wife and i both work at a hospital, although in two entirely different fields. With covid on an all out rampage, workload, holidays, school, it all adds up.

i'm having more trouble adjusting to sleeping in chastity than i thought i would. Mistress has allowed me to sleep without it on, just so i can get some sleep. Much appreciated BTW. Although i feel like when i'm not locked, it's not "real"... i mean i'm still denied, my last orgasm was Halloween. And i do wear my cage all day.

We've had very little "us" time. It's not any ones fault, we're both guiltily. We're both busy, and stressed. It's easy to feel "neglected" though. Chastity is a great lifestyle when you're teased and constantly reminded of it, but gets "boring" when you don't "play". i'm not complaining though. Every time i start feeling like that, i need to remind myself that i'm the submissive and my place is in chastity. Mistress has made it very clear that She owns my pleasure. Erections are for Her only.

~Sierra

Punishment and Denial

Don't get too excited, i'm not talking about me this time.  Well, not for the most part... Not that i'm not denied, being in chastity does a pretty good job of that. Or that i'm not punished either, Mistress gave me a sound spanking just yesterday evening. No, this post is about Mistress.

LOL i certainly don't punish my Wife, or deny Her anything! But, chastity has somewhat of a punishment/denial affect on Her as well. See, She very much enjoys releasing me from the cage when we play so that She she can feel me get hard. She also loves feeling me inside of Her, although i have a VERY difficult time even getting all the way in before i have to pull out.

Here's the problem. I recently ordered and received a new base ring for my MM Jailbird.  It's one size smaller and it's a double ring. It's WAY more comfortable, 90% of the time.  I've been having problems sleeping through the night, and i'm sure it's just because i have yet to become accustomed to the new configuration. We've decided over the weekend that i will remain locked at all times until i can consistently sleep through the night.

So, yesterday evening, Mistress really wanted me out of the cage, but couldn't release me.  For that i feel like She was punished and denied.  We just need to remember that this is for the best, and will in the end, benefit us both.

~Sierra

Mental Erections

Living in full time, 24/7 chastity is not easy. Being denied the simple act of an erection, whether intentional or not, is not for the weak. If you think a man is weak (submissive or not) when he's put in chastity you are dead wrong. Yes i am a sub, a CD, a sissy... but weak?  i am not!  Think about it... The average male has 11 erections every day. me?  i have zero.  Well, zero physical erections thanks to the cage.  Which brings me to the point of this post.

Since i'm denied physical erections, i like to describe them as mental. i've had two orgasms in the past 2 and a half months, and i'm let out of my cage once or twice a week for teasing just to feel what an erection is. The only times i've become erect are when Mistress wants to tease me. Denied, teased, frustrated, and horny.  Horny ALL the time.  Like seriously... i feel like a teenager again. Only difference now is, i can't physically express it. 

When i become aroused now, which is VERY often, i get what i can only describe as a mental erection. i certainly remember and know what it feels like to become physically erect, but now it's mental. Or, maybe a full body erection. It's really hard to explain the feeling. i'm mentallyaroused, but thanks to the cage i can not become physically aroused, my body tingles all over, i get an erection like pressure in my groin region, and can feel a throbbing "erection" inside of my pelvis as if i had a huge hard-on inside of me. But the best part is in my head. 

Images of my Wife, memories of what we've done, what she's said, how we've "played", what we talk about. Fantasy's, life encounters, experiences. It all plays in. i wonder if this is what arousal is like as a woman? Since women don't have any physical signs (ie. a penis) of arousal. Does chastity force you to experience arousal as women do?

~Sierra